tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6064164336651185592024-03-18T09:22:30.006-07:00If I Do the Right ThingPushed aside after 24 years with a woman, now trying to date menTwoLiveshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05801244463128618355noreply@blogger.comBlogger59125truetag:blogger.com,1999:blog-606416433665118559.post-81449815947395271532022-08-20T20:34:00.001-07:002022-08-20T20:34:46.737-07:00First Time: Sex with a Woman! (Bi / Gay Story - Part 27)<p> "My girlfriend Gabby REALLY surprised me when I visited her for Spring Break!"</p><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><iframe allowfullscreen="" class="BLOG_video_class" height="353" src="https://www.youtube.com/embed/on-nJr0HJRA" width="480" youtube-src-id="on-nJr0HJRA"></iframe></div><br /><p><br /></p>TwoLiveshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05801244463128618355noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-606416433665118559.post-40355881171854391802022-07-10T11:03:00.000-07:002022-07-10T11:03:01.434-07:00"GAY" DOES NOT DEFINE ME!!! - (Bi / Gay Story - Part 26)<p> <span style="background-color: white; color: #0d0d0d; font-family: Roboto, Noto, sans-serif; font-size: 15px; white-space: pre-wrap;">"I'm in a relationship with a girl that I didn't seek. I thought the relationship would fade when we went long-distance. Now she wants more from me...I'm so conflicted about what to do. The only thing I know for sure is that 'GAY' should not define me!"</span></p><p><span style="background-color: white; color: #0d0d0d; font-family: Roboto, Noto, sans-serif; font-size: 15px; white-space: pre-wrap;"><br /></span></p><p></p><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><iframe allowfullscreen="" class="BLOG_video_class" height="361" src="https://www.youtube.com/embed/hpQtOwvgfDo" width="593" youtube-src-id="hpQtOwvgfDo"></iframe></div><br /><span style="background-color: white; color: #0d0d0d; font-family: Roboto, Noto, sans-serif; font-size: 15px; white-space: pre-wrap;"><br /></span><p></p>TwoLiveshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05801244463128618355noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-606416433665118559.post-67638670758506472782022-03-05T09:17:00.001-08:002022-03-05T09:17:27.270-08:00Gay Guy with a Girlfriend: What Should I Do?? (Bi / Gay Story - Part 25)<p><span style="background-color: white; color: #0d0d0d; font-family: Roboto, Noto, sans-serif; font-size: 15px; white-space: pre-wrap;">After my girlfriend nearly caught me in bed with a dude, I've decided to not to take any more chances. I enjoy hanging out with my girlfriend but we're going to live 2,000 miles apart for 6 months so I'm hoping the distance will help me decide whether I should keep experimenting with her or not.</span></p><p><span style="background-color: white; color: #0d0d0d; font-family: Roboto, Noto, sans-serif; font-size: 15px; white-space: pre-wrap;"><br /></span></p><p></p><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><iframe allowfullscreen="" class="BLOG_video_class" height="328" src="https://www.youtube.com/embed/Q3iwqYb2Z4Q" width="476" youtube-src-id="Q3iwqYb2Z4Q"></iframe></div><br /><span style="background-color: white; color: #0d0d0d; font-family: Roboto, Noto, sans-serif; font-size: 15px; white-space: pre-wrap;"><br /></span><p></p>TwoLiveshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05801244463128618355noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-606416433665118559.post-92050998329457320902021-11-13T09:06:00.000-08:002021-11-13T09:06:27.013-08:00The Gay Hook-Up and My Girlfriend (Bi / Gay Story - Part 24)<p> <span style="background-color: white; color: #0d0d0d; font-family: Roboto, Noto, sans-serif; font-size: 15px; white-space: pre-wrap;">"I'm away from everyone I know in Oxford for a few months. I want to do gay stuff with a nice English guy while I'm here. The problem is this girl has decided we're dating and she always wants to hang out. How am I going to have any gay hook-ups if she's always around???"</span></p><p><span style="background-color: white; color: #0d0d0d; font-family: Roboto, Noto, sans-serif; font-size: 15px; white-space: pre-wrap;"><br /></span></p><p></p><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><iframe allowfullscreen="" class="BLOG_video_class" height="368" src="https://www.youtube.com/embed/HGYRFRC0-Qc" width="595" youtube-src-id="HGYRFRC0-Qc"></iframe></div><br /><span style="background-color: white; color: #0d0d0d; font-family: Roboto, Noto, sans-serif; font-size: 15px; white-space: pre-wrap;"><br /></span><p></p>TwoLiveshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05801244463128618355noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-606416433665118559.post-5041719447890811162021-07-03T08:01:00.000-07:002021-07-03T08:01:18.317-07:00Cornered and Asked if I'm Gay. The Next Day was Bizarre. (Bi / Gay Story - Part 23)<p> <span style="background-color: white; color: #0d0d0d; font-family: Roboto, Noto, sans-serif; font-size: 15px; white-space: pre-wrap;">"Are you Gay?" - No one has ever asked me that before. When it happened, I didn't expect it. I had to think fast! Now that I've answered, I'm in a weird and totally unexpected situation.</span></p><p><span style="background-color: white; color: #0d0d0d; font-family: Roboto, Noto, sans-serif; font-size: 15px; white-space: pre-wrap;"><br /></span></p><p></p><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><iframe allowfullscreen="" class="BLOG_video_class" height="338" src="https://www.youtube.com/embed/WUZG33xyQZc" width="486" youtube-src-id="WUZG33xyQZc"></iframe></div><br /><span style="background-color: white; color: #0d0d0d; font-family: Roboto, Noto, sans-serif; font-size: 15px; white-space: pre-wrap;"><br /></span><p></p>TwoLiveshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05801244463128618355noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-606416433665118559.post-48726718353472497492021-05-29T08:35:00.004-07:002021-06-30T08:26:08.107-07:00Gay, Closeted & Drunk: an Unexpected Gay Bar Tour in London (Bi / Gay Story - Part 22)<p><span color="rgba(0, 0, 0, 0.87)" face="Roboto, Noto, sans-serif" style="background-color: white; font-size: 15px; white-space: pre-wrap;">Although I'm gay and in the closest, I've been experimenting with being out while traveling alone in Europe. I had kind of a crazy night in London last night - but this morning was genuinely STUNNING. This was not what I expected when I came to London.</span></p><p></p><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><iframe allowfullscreen="" class="BLOG_video_class" height="316" src="https://www.youtube.com/embed/F8wV7NEpk8g" width="481" youtube-src-id="F8wV7NEpk8g"></iframe></div><br /><span color="rgba(0, 0, 0, 0.87)" face="Roboto, Noto, sans-serif" style="background-color: white; font-size: 15px; white-space: pre-wrap;"><br /></span><p></p><br /><span color="rgba(0, 0, 0, 0.87)" face="Roboto, Noto, sans-serif" style="background-color: white; font-size: 15px; white-space: pre-wrap;"><br /></span><p></p>TwoLiveshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05801244463128618355noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-606416433665118559.post-12319561683807685892021-04-24T06:39:00.001-07:002021-04-27T09:15:55.793-07:00First Time: Hook-Up in a Gay Club (Bi / Gay Story - Part 21)<p>It's 30 minutes before closing time and everyone is pairing up to go home together, probably for gay sex. </p><p>I've barely talked to anyone in the few gay clubs I'd been in and no one tonight. Now, all of a sudden, this guy I've never seen before is asking me to leave with him. </p><p>I'm very nervous but I think I'm going to say yes.</p><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><iframe allowfullscreen="" class="BLOG_video_class" height="355" src="https://www.youtube.com/embed/0tGLjVqL5ws" width="489" youtube-src-id="0tGLjVqL5ws"></iframe></div><br /><p><br /></p>TwoLiveshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05801244463128618355noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-606416433665118559.post-9231830358492112322021-03-14T09:08:00.000-07:002021-03-14T09:08:09.974-07:00Gay at Night Experiment (Bi / Gay Story - Part 20)<p> After coming out to one gay friend when he came out to me, I'm still
99.9% in the closet. But I'm going to try an experiment when I travel
alone for two weeks in Germany, Austria and England. No one will know
what I'm doing and I can't wait!</p><p> </p><p></p><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><iframe allowfullscreen="" class="BLOG_video_class" height="266" src="https://www.youtube.com/embed/zJ9P5BLJBsY" width="465" youtube-src-id="zJ9P5BLJBsY"></iframe></div><br /> <p></p>TwoLiveshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05801244463128618355noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-606416433665118559.post-85633924929458349722021-01-15T16:07:00.002-08:002021-01-16T23:04:42.206-08:00Gay Bars are Scary! / Life and School Update (Bi / Gay Story - Part 19)<p>I'm 19, gay and in the closet. Last summer, I made a gay friend at
work, Omed. When he came out to me, I came out to him (part 18). This
summer we're working together again and Omed is determined to get me
into some gay bars so I can see what they're like. Um...scary! </p><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><iframe allowfullscreen="" class="BLOG_video_class" height="266" src="https://www.youtube.com/embed/AidZ-QD-uZk" width="531" youtube-src-id="AidZ-QD-uZk"></iframe></div><br /><p><br /></p>TwoLiveshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05801244463128618355noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-606416433665118559.post-81257568868966835022020-12-05T10:44:00.009-08:002021-01-15T22:12:14.670-08:00Gay Miracle / School Field Hook Up / College Year Two (Bi / Gay Story - Part 18)<p> Here's part 18 of my bi / gay story, a summary of all the gay stuff
that's happened to me over the past several months. The two biggest
things were completely unexpected and really quite shocking for me!<br /></p><p> </p><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><iframe allowfullscreen="" class="BLOG_video_class" height="266" src="https://www.youtube.com/embed/bykASws-KBc" width="484" youtube-src-id="bykASws-KBc"></iframe></div><br /><p></p><p></p>TwoLiveshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05801244463128618355noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-606416433665118559.post-31761526272871097942020-09-26T14:00:00.007-07:002020-12-05T10:42:19.384-08:00Gay College Hook-Up / First Year Highlights (Bi / Gay Story - Part 17)<p>Gay college hook-ups are hot, right? </p><p>I really wanted to meet someone
but I'm firmly in the closet. I had to find a creative but safe way to
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break. </p><p>My high school was still in session so I went back to see some
people. I ended up having one of the most awkward face-to-face
conversations ever! </p><p>Also, for a solid minute I thought about joining my
college's LGBT club.</p><p> </p><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><iframe allowfullscreen="" class="BLOG_video_class" height="266" src="https://www.youtube.com/embed/BoF5sD50-ws" width="320" youtube-src-id="BoF5sD50-ws"></iframe></div> <br /><p></p>TwoLiveshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05801244463128618355noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-606416433665118559.post-7765182586002028142020-07-10T18:25:00.005-07:002020-09-27T10:16:15.830-07:00Gay Boyfriend's Confession + Fight with Dad (Bi / Gay Story - Part 15)Meeting my first gay boyfriend has made for a fun - and eventful -
summer. But after last weekend (part 14) and now this weekend, plus a
few more things I've learned about Brian, I don't think I'll be seeing
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He's asked me to do favors for him, both when we're naked and when we're not.<br />
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I met him.<br />
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Here's what happened next!<br />
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barely think of anyone else. In some ways he seems 100% straight.. but
why does he always want to wrestle with me???<br />
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The feel of his body pressing and rubbing against mine is driving me
crazy!!<br />
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1. What do you do when a straight guy (your friend's boyfriend!) seems to be flirting with you?<br />
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2. How do you avoid getting pushed into a relationship with a girl by well-intentioned friends?<br />
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<br />TwoLiveshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05801244463128618355noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-606416433665118559.post-37215308554918709652019-11-02T00:19:00.003-07:002020-08-02T12:52:32.098-07:00Fifteen: First time sex! So gay. (Bi / Gay Story - Part 9)Here's the story of my first time:<br />
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TwoLiveshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05801244463128618355noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-606416433665118559.post-90920370885433755862019-10-05T01:11:00.003-07:002020-08-02T13:06:14.983-07:00Fifteen: "For a BJ Call..." (Bi / Gay Story - Part 8)For many of us, internalized homophobia and self-hate are part and parcel of being gay.<br />
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They have ruined lives and caused hundreds of thousands of deaths, mostly by suicide.<br />
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I was 15 when my feeling of self-hate peaked, and like so many others, I was determined to kill myself. Fortunately, I guess, I was such a pathetic loser that I didn't have the guts to actually do it.<br />
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Little did I know it at the time, but being pathetic at the key moment of a teenage, self-hating crisis turned out be the perfect vaccine for my internalized homophobia. From that point onward, the potency of my self-hate faded. I wasn't cured, nor will I ever be, but I was permanently inoculated from most of its harmful effects. Lucky me! (Seriously.)<br />
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This is good news for you too. It means that instead of focusing inward, my story starts to involve others --- and that is where it begins to become less conventional.<br />
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Once I understood that death wasn't an option, I grew hungry to understand what being gay actually meant. My local library was an invaluable resource is that regard, and it's where this episode of my "Staying in the Closet Story" takes place...<br />
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Unlike many others, however, I never actually made an attempt. This teen-angsty video explains why.<br />
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Oh the drama of being a closeted, self-hating homosexual at 15!<br />
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The good news is that this video shows the closing minutes of that drama.<br />
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Much more interesting things lie ahead, like, sex for the first time.<br />
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<br />TwoLiveshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05801244463128618355noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-606416433665118559.post-19612333533122102412019-08-31T11:40:00.001-07:002020-08-02T13:07:35.467-07:00Fifteen: Hanging myself at school (Bi / Gay Story - Part 6)Looking back, this all seems very dramatic now.<br />
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But at the time, it was very real.<br />
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Part of being gay is dealing with self-hate. In a way, the hate is a disease. Mentally, you can try all kinds of tricks to help you cope but ultimately a "cure" comes from deep within. A place outside of our own control.<br />
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My self-hate peaked in a do-or-die month when I was 15. I feel fortunate to have dealt with it then. I know many men are still struggling with it in their 30s, 40s, 50s, 60s and 70s.<br />
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Fear, motivated by self-hate and homophobia, is what keeps most men in the closet. Although I wasn't fear-free by 16, the purge of self-hate at 15 laid the foundation for the rest of my unusual story.<br />
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<br />TwoLiveshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05801244463128618355noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-606416433665118559.post-40689625135383761312019-08-10T07:02:00.002-07:002020-08-02T13:08:27.798-07:00Fifteen: Outed & Gay-Bashed at School (Bi / Gay Story - Part 5)The worst part of being gay is the fear of how people would treat me if they knew. Bad things happen to gays.<br />
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I secretly and anonymously reached out to Sean (Episode 4) but I was so nervous that I made a huge, potentially life changing mistake. I will pay a big price for this. Consequences will come, I'm just not sure when.<br />
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I'm very, very afraid of what will happen.<br />
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<br />TwoLiveshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05801244463128618355noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-606416433665118559.post-22753762930263978692019-08-02T22:09:00.000-07:002020-08-02T12:56:19.573-07:00Fifteen: Sean, the Cute Freshman Soccer Player (Bi / Gay Story - Part 4)At 13, a day after I admitted to myself I was gay, I decided the best way to cope with it was to NEVER tell anyone.<br />
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About 18 months later I started wondering who else at my high school might be keeping the same secret. I couldn't be the only closeted guy there, could I?<br />
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I was determined to find others. A friend, at least.<br />
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I focused on one (cute) guy in particular - and I had a full-proof plan to find out if he was gay - with absolutely no risk to myself.<br />
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Continuing on with this riveting series...<br />
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Here's how I figured out I was a homo, at the age of 13.<br />
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It's 7 months of periodic self-examination shoe-horned into 10 minutes.<br />
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There will no be Oscars awarded for writing, acting, directing, cinematography, editing or craft service here.<br />
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Even so, you're a nice guy, right? Click on it and let it play until the end. Then leave effusive comments begging for more.<br />
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The next two videos, for age 15, are much more eventful.<br />
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And, in response to a thoughtful anonymous comment asking why closeted videos are relevant today, I say this:<br />
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Although homophobia (in all forms) was a contributing factor for my decision to stay closeted, it really wasn't THE reason. <br />
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And, now that homophobia is less of a societal factor, other reasons for staying in the closet become more relevant. <br />
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Those reasons aren't being publicly discussed, which is why I'm putting myself out there. I'm trying to get a conversation going.<br />
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Being closeted is a story people *think* they know, but in many ways they don't.<br />
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